Notice that I said "work with it," not "How to kick its ass and kill it." And by the way, this process can be used with any type of craving.
If you’re willing to try this in the midst of a craving, (if not you can try to remember the last time you had one), here’s how:
Warning: If you approach this experiment with an attitude or "energy" of trying to fix your food craving, your efforts will probably backfire and you'll end up feeling frustrated. The resistance to “what is” is what keeps “what is” stuck.
Assuming that you weren’t directly involved in the accident and traumatized yourself, here’s how to offer comfort that might prevent someone from developing long-term residual trauma.
Please let me know if you have any questions or would like more information.
If you are not yet working with the felt sense and at the level of the body, please consider doing so. I stumbled onto to this way of working 25 years ago, born completely out of personal necessity and personal trauma, and I haven’t looked back.
Early in my training as a therapist in 1992, I started having bizarre pain and overwhelming emotions that seemed to come out of nowhere. It seemed that something was getting triggered in me, but I had no memory of any trauma in my childhood and nothing that I could attribute this to. It soon became clear that no amount of talk-therapy was going to help me get to the bottom of what was going on. Fortunately, the therapist I was working with at the time, was familiar with repressed memories and the mind-body-spirit connection. She eventually referred me to what were then considered fringe modalities – like Holotropic Breathwork and Hakomi.
I took to this kind of work like a fish to water and over time I became increasingly comfortable with allowing my body sensations and their accompanying primal feelings to surface - making a space for them in my body, staying with them and tracking them, adding my breath and sometimes movement, until they released.
One day, triggered by a phone conversation with my ex-husband, I knew I was ready to “remember” what happened to me and allowed my body to essentially re-enact a very early childhood trauma. While I had no visual memory of the trauma, and still don’t, I nevertheless let my body move through it to completion. (I was essentially doing Somatic Experiencing long before anybody knew what SE was)!
At that point I was hooked. I knew that I would dedicate my life to pursuing body-centered approaches that would help me clear out whatever was inside of me that was holding me back and help others do the same. (See video Trauma and the Body: Shelly's Story).
Feeling marginalized by and frustrated with the lack of recognition and support our profession was giving to this kind of work, I entered a life coach training program in 2005, hoping to feel freer without the heavy cloak of the medical model, which is, let’s face it, always lagging behind. (When I got EMDR training in 2004, it was considered “fringe” and as far as I knew, agencies scoffed at it and insurance companies would not pay for it).
Since then, I have been working quietly, doing my thing, letting myself be misunderstood as some kind of new-age witch doctor, when along comes Bessel Van Der Kolk with his research (which I’m a little late hearing about because frankly, research bores me and whatever news I get from the professional literature about this topic rarely seems like news to me).
But lo and behold it turns out, according to Bessel and some of my younger colleagues, I am doing evidence-based, trauma-informed counseling and coaching and have been doing so for the last 20-plus years. Who knew? Well, I didn’t. But thanks to Bessel, I feel vindicated and validated, knowing that despite the lack of recognition and support, I am on the right track and have been. (It’s a shame we need research to know what we know, but that’s another blog post entirely).
If you want to learn more about the felt sense, how emotional content is stored in the body, and how to access and release it, you don’t have to travel far and you don’t have to pay a fortune. Give me a call. Or better yet, come to the farm for a visit. The horses and I have lots to say on the topic.
Love to you all,
"Psychologists usually try to help people use insight and understanding to manage their behavior. However, neuroscience research shows that very few psychological problems are the result of defects in understanding; most originate in pressures from deeper regions in the brain that drive our perception and attention. When the alarm bell of the emotional brain keeps signaling that you are in danger, no amount of insight will silence it.” Bessel Van Der Kolk, MD, The Body Keeps the Score.
Perhaps like many of you, I sometimes find myself overeating – especially at night. I know I’m not really hungry – not physically hungry anyway. And, yes, I have the tools to release and work with the feelings that are driving my craving for just one more cookie. (I tell myself it’s OK because they’re sugar and gluten-free). But, I don’t want to use my tools. I want to eat my cookies!
But this morning I awoke with sense of longing – a longing for comfort – which didn’t really surprise me since I’d already figured that I was trying to comfort myself with food. But it wasn’t until this morning that I tapped into the feeling of longing and took the time to get a clearer sense, a clearer felt sense, of its tone and texture, and how it was vibrating in my body. It became clear that my longing for comfort was more specific than a longing for comfort. It was a longing to be comforted by another human being. While the two might sound very similar, at the level of the felt sense, they are very different. The former is conceptual, but the latter is palpable and requires me to feel and access something deeper and more vulnerable inside myself.
As I continued to track my body sensations and the feeling that came with them, I had a feeling-image of a kind woman sitting next to me on the ground, touching my hand, and speaking softly, after a car accident I had 15 years ago. It felt so good to let in her kindness, her touch, and the comfort of another human being’s ability to just let me be – where I was and how I felt.
In reality, after that accident, I was all alone and in shock. I went to lie down on the ground so I could get grounded and breathe and let my body shake, when an EMS person asked me to get up. She said I was traumatizing the other drivers who were being routed around the accident site! In my state of shock and victimhood I complied.
Perhaps this unmet need for comfort following the traumatic event had gotten stuck in my bodymind - maybe exacerbated by being unable to complete the discharge of energy following the accident. Or perhaps I was “remembering” other times that I didn’t receive the comfort that I needed, but it’s not really important.
Working at the level of the body has shown me over and over again that the story doesn’t matter. The whys are irrelevant. Simply allowing myself to be with the felt sense of longing, allowed an image to come, and allowed for a compassionate space for the feeling to dissolve. I’ll keep you posted on my cookie habit, but until then I think my boy Bessel Van Der Kolk says it best,
“Neuroscience research shows that the only way we can change the way we feel is by becoming aware of our inner experience and learning to befriend what is going inside ourselves.” Bessel Van Der Kolk, MD, The Body Keeps the Score.
Related article: What Are You Hungry For: A Therapist's Encounter With A Food Craving
Most of you who know me pretty well, know that I tend to stay off Facebook, avoid the news - on television, radio, or any such device - and generally stick to myself.
I'm just too sensitive and don't always have time or want to take the time or want to be bothered or inconvenienced, by the feelings that get triggered in me when I'm exposed to the news. I've got plenty of feelings to deal with, just living my life and tending to what's mine to tend to. I don't see the point in adding extra drama to the mix.
While most of the time, this approach feels like good self-care, I sometimes wonder if I'm missing out on (or avoiding) some pretty rich healing opportunities.
Like today when I was looking at my Weather Channel App. (It's actually one that I monitor closely, and sometimes get hooked by the news stories there).
There was a video of a dog, hiding in the ashy remains of a burned out house in Greece. "Ninety-one dead," they said and not sure who the dog belonged to and whether or not his owners were alive, and a young girl speaking in soft sweet tones, cajoling the dog to come out. She might have been speaking Greek, but my heart understood every word she said, and I sat down at the kitchen table, with my head in my hands, and cried - cried for the people in Greece, cried for the people in California, and cried because there are fires and floods and devastation and loss.
And yet somehow strangely, I felt myself soothed, as I opened my heart, acknowledged my humanness, and joined the dance.
This article was written by Candace Pert, PhD, neuroscientist, pharmacologist, and discoverer of the opiate receptor in the brain. It is taken from a talk she gave in 2003 and was copied below directly from her website: www.CandacePert.com.
For me, it explains why so much of our time, energy, and effort goes into moving toward those things which make us feel good, or at least offer the promise of making us feel good, and try to avoid or distance ourselves from things that make us feel bad. I think deep down - way deep down - we know we're meant to feel good.
It's just that somewhere along the way, we got confused about where our good feelings come from. We started thinking that something, someone, or some condition outside of us held the key.
"Is it possible that we are all biologically programmed for happiness? I believe so. In fact, my research over the last 30 years has led me to this conclusion: we’re actually “hardwired” for bliss—both physical and divine. By hardwired I mean that we have major endorphin pathways that lead from the back of the brain to the frontal cortex, where we have the most opiate receptors—the cellular binding sites for endorphins.
Endorphins are naturally occurring opiates that dull pain and produce euphoria when they bind with opiate receptors. Thus they literally alter our mood on the cellular level. It sounds amazing, but my work has shown me that we are physically hardwired to pay attention to, and plan for, pleasure. That’s just how we’re designed. The pathways of many neurosubstances throughout the body have been mapped by other researchers, but none of those maps explicitly convey that the human brain has evolved to appreciate, pay attention to, and be guided by pleasure.
It’s unnatural for people to live without pleasure. I believe that at other times and places in history people probably experienced much more pleasure than we do in our modern era. The root of the problem today may be that we’re always looking for the bliss that’s going to come “When I…”, “When I graduate,” “When I finish this,” “When I do that.”
Another obstacle to experiencing pleasure today may be the thought that we are separate from each other and from the rest of creation. We really all are one. When you start to get this, maybe even only on a subconscious level, I think you will start to experience more bliss."
Candace Pert was an American neuroscientist and pharmacologist who discovered the opiate receptor, the cellular binding site for endorphins in the brain. She wrote The Molecules Of Emotion and Everything You Need To Know To Feel Go(o)d. The following paragraphs were taken from CandacePert.com and an article entitled Where Do You Store Your Emotions.
“A feeling sparked in our mind or body will translate as a peptide being released somewhere. [Organs, tissues, skin, muscle and endocrine glands], they all have peptide receptors on them and can access and store emotional information. This means the emotional memory is stored in many places in the body, not just or even primarily, in the brain. You can access emotional memory anywhere in the peptide/receptor network, in any number of ways. I think unexpressed emotions are literally lodged in the body. The real true emotions that need to be expressed are in the body, trying to move up and be expressed and thereby integrated, made whole, and healed."
“Let the emotions bubble up. Let the chips fall where they may…the process of catharsis is not complete without saying things as the first step to experiencing things…To feel and understand means you have worked it all the way through. It has bubbled all the way to the surface. You’re integrating at higher and higher levels in the body, bringing emotions into consciousness. Once integrated, the natural wisdom of the receptors will release interrupted healing and restorative and regenerative processes can take over.”
“By simply acknowledging emotions, they are expressed. In being expressed, emotions can be released, even old emotions stored in body memory. Allowing my emotions to surface into awareness and to be able to name my emotions is the beginning of emotional exploration. I am moving forward, trying to find my position within the family, within the community, and in life.”
When it comes to our emotions, we normally do one of two things - suppress them or express them. Sometimes we try to transcend them, but that's really just a dressed-up way of suppressing them.
Beyond suppression or even expression is a third way - releasing.
People often think they've released their feelings about something and they'll say, "Oh, I let that go." But often what they're describing is a function of the intellect or the will - a mental decision to dismiss a thought or a feeling, push it away, or somehow distance themselves from it.
This kind of "from-the-neck-up" releasing often doesn't last. It will tend to reveal itself later as a physical symptom or a general feeling of stress or tension. It is unsuccessful because feelings, and the deeper feelings that are driving them, live below conscious awareness. So unless you connect with them where they live, you're just sort of scratching at the surface.
The kind of releasing that I'm referring to - real releasing - is not merely a function of the thinking brain. Instead, it employs the thinking brain to access the bodymind. The bodymind is the unconscious mind and is home to the feelings just beneath the surface - the ones we're often trying to avoid - either consciously or not.
Accessing the bodymind provides us with a felt experience of our emotions, allowing us to connect with them on their own turf. Then we can learn how to speak with them in a language that they understand and invites them to release.
Letting go in this way is a physical, palpable experience, which is sometimes subtle, sometimes not. It's sort of like taking a deep involuntary sigh inside. Afterwards, you'll feel lighter and more spacious inside.
This happens organically, without effort or willpower, You feel lighter and freer, not by trying to impose your will onto your feelings, but by releasing them from the inside-out.
When it comes right down to it, there are only two kinds of feelings: the love kind and the non-love kind. Love feelings, those like compassion, peace, wellbeing, and freedom, feel good. While non-love feelings, like anger, depression, grief, and jealousy feel bad.
Feelings are just energy. And only love energy can convert non-love energy. Every spiritual tradition says so. Quantum physics says so too.
So how do we love that which we don't find lovable - that which we typically try to suppress, deny, or analyze our way out of? By trying to force ourselves to be loving? By trying to convince ourselves that we love that which we do not? No. Anything forced speaks of effort and control. Effort and control are not love.
Sometimes the closest we can come to loving our negative feelings, is simply allowing them to be there, acknowledging their presence. And if we find that too difficult, if self-judgement is in the way, we can simply notice it and make a space for that to be there too.
Perhaps, this won't fix our negative feelings right away. But, with practice, we can learn how to make a big enough, safe enough space to accommodate all the parts of ourselves. Doing so creates the optimum environment for their healing and deepens our capacity for self-love and compassion in the process.
When animals are faced with a threat, one that is life-threatening, their bodies experience a flood of chemicals, like cortisol and adrenaline, that throw their bodies temporarily out of whack. Once the threat has passed, their bodies discharge the survival stress energy, in the form of shaking or stretching, allowing them to move on with their lives as if nothing ever happened.
For us humans, it's not so simple. After stressful events, whether it's a single event or cumulative "mini traumas", whether it's actual or perceived, whether it's remembered or repressed, our bodies often do not have ways to effectively clear the arousal chemicals produced. This residual energy tends to store in our bodies resulting in PTSD, depression, anxiety, muscle aches and pains, irritable bowel syndrome and other digestive issues, insomnia, and autoimmune disorders.
In his revolutionary book, The Body Keeps the Score, Dr. Bessel Van Der Kolk, trauma therapist and researcher, draws on 30 years of experience to argue powerfully that trauma is one of the West's most urgent public health issues. He explains how its stressful impact can predispose us to everything from diabetes to heart disease, maybe even cancer.
Van Der Kolk and other innovative researchers say that while traditional "talk therapy" may be helpful to a degree, working with the body to locate the source of the trauma and having a way release it safely, is the key to lasting resolution of the psychological and physiological effects of trauma.
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